I realize that I have been away from blogging for nearly a month and this has truly been my longest hiatus from the blogosphere since I started this blog more than 2 years ago. But life took a really crazy and unexpected turn since Aug 17th 2014 when I posted my last blog and I am still trying to come to terms with it. My mum was visiting me when she suddenly fell ill on 15th August, slipped into coma on 18th and passed away on 1st September. The suddenness of the whole thing is still sinking in; it somehow seems unacceptable that my mum who did have a congenial heart problem but was not ill in the sense of being really ill, should suddenly one day complain of low-grade fever and then lose consciousness and before a blink of an eye is, no more. I was not ready for any of this, but I realize since last year September, things have happened to me for which I am not ready and maybe that’s a good thing, because if I start to think on how my life has fallen apart over the 12 months, I will have to see a therapist. Nevertheless, it’s still difficult to really believe that she is truly no more and while our relationship was far more smooth and was in fact quite difficult, the fact that she is no more there to fight with, argue with, talk with and be with is heartbreaking!!

Thus in the memory of my Mum, I publish this poem written by Christina Rossetti, a poet whom both she and I loved….

Sonnets are full of love

Sonnets are full of love, and this my tome

Has many sonnets: so here now shall be

One sonnet more, a love sonnet, from me

To her whose heart is my heart’s quiet home,

To my first Love, my Mother, on whose knee I learnt love-lore that is not troublesome;

Whose service is my special dignity,

And she my loadstar while I go and come

And so because you love me, and because I love you, Mother, I have woven a wreath

Of rhymes wherewith to crown your honored name:

In you not fourscore years can dim the flame Of love, whose blessed glow transcends the laws

Of time and change and mortal life and death.


Take care Ma….be in peace wherever you are!!Love You!

18 thoughts on “A Sonnet…

  1. I am so sorry that you have had such a loss, and I wish you well as you move forward into a changed future.

    1. cirtnecce says:

      Thanks Jane! I will…I will have to get back to life sooner than later and I will plunge in…thank you again for your kind words!!

  2. Nish says:

    Oh, so sorry to hear about your mom. My condolences and best wishes.

  3. sheenmeem says:

    I am so sorry that your mom passed away. Take care. Sheen.

    1. cirtnecce says:

      Thank You Mam! I will!!

  4. Stefanie says:

    I am so, so sorry. You have my heartfelt condolences and lots of virtual hugs.

    1. cirtnecce says:

      Thanks a ton…the hugs helped a lot!!

  5. Oh, that’s heartbreaking. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

    1. cirtnecce says:

      Thank You Cleo…all your prayers and wishes have helped tremedously in making me move forward!!! Thank You for your kind thoughts!!!

  6. biblioglobal says:

    Oh, very sorry to hear that. My best wishes to you as you heal.

    1. cirtnecce says:

      Thank you so much for your kind words!

  7. That poem is a wonderful gift to your departed mother, and to yourself. May she rest in peace, and may you also find rest and peace in the coming year. Grief is work. God bless you.

    1. cirtnecce says:

      Thank You for your kind words and prayers!! I really appreciate your thoughts and I am sure my mum is at much more peace because of such kind thoughts!!

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